Thursday, December 23, 2010

My blog's birthday

When I first started writing for this blog it was a winter break just like this one and I was terribly bored. After being so busy for some time I didn't know what to do with myself when the semester was over. So, thanks to my husband, I decided to play with this new tool they call 'blog'. When I started I just wanted to kill some time but little did I know that this game was going to turn into my refuge, my imaginary friend, my companion, my cure. Now when I cannot write for some time, like during the end-of-semester-madness, I actually miss writing entries. The good thing about blogging is that I can write freely without thinking much (as you may have guessed from the typos and errors)--sometimes just to document what I read, sometimes to share my readings, sometimes to ask what you think about something, sometimes to externalize my thinking, and sometimes just for the fun of it. However, it is also true that I feel vulnerable when I write publicly. You see it is quite easy to forget that other people might read what I'm writing since people who read this blog do not seem to write any comments. So, it is true that sometimes I feel like I'm talking to myself and that this blog is not public. But sometimes I check google analytics which shows me how many people visited from where, etc. and then I realize that some people do read this blog, It makes me extremely happy (and sometimes this idea terrifies me ^_^). According to google analytics people from 63 countries visited this blog for 1,389 times and spent more than 3 minutes on average looking at the blog. I know it is a small number compared to other blogs, but for me it is a huge number since I thought nobody would be interested in what I read or write.  If I allow myself to think about it for a while it feels like I'm speaking in front of 1,389 people--such a terrifying thought for a person like me who has a stage fright. Still, I cannot stop writing. For some reason it feels so natural and cathartic.There is only one thing that can make me happier than writing and that is conversing. Maybe things will change in the new year and you will decide to write a comment maybe recommend me a reading, ask a question, share a video or something. I will be waiting.

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